Well... with the inspiration of many friends- my best friend being #1, I'm hoping to start this journey, AGAIN, and stick to it. My BFF started a blog back in May and I'm hoping that documenting this journey will help hold me accountable and also help keep me on track... Fingers crossed.
Let's start from the beginning... I have had weight problems as far back as I can remember. Actually, it all started back in 5th grade--- when I had the dreaded "change". As if puberty isn't hard enough, add weight problems in the mix and you've got yourself a real recipe for disaster! I've never had a problem making friends, and consider myself pretty outgoing. Except for my close friends and family, you would never know that deep down I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. I hate trying on clothes, and I hate going on dates, and going to the pool--- so why isn't this enough to get me off my ass to actually do something?!
I started MFP back in January, 2012 and actually did really well for several months. I lost 23 pounds and started running and was enjoying myself. I signed up to do a 5k on Mother's Day- "Run Like a Mother". My friend Tiffany, from MFP came into town and did the race with me. My time wasn't great, but I did it. I actually went into a race with the intention to run and I finished!
~Erin & Tiffany 5/13/12~
Once I finished that race it was like I didn't have anything to look forward to, I just gave up. I've gained back 12 of the pounds I lost and am back in the freaking 200's again! I NEVER wanted to look at the scale and see that horrible '2' at the beginning of my weight again. I could have probably crawled in a hole Monday morning when I saw it. But, instead of crying and whining about it- I'm going to try and look at this as a new beginning. I do NOT want to be this person for the rest of my life. I want to set good examples for my daughter and instill healthy habits in her. I want to be able to look at pictures and be proud of what I see. I want to have energy and live to be happy and healthy for as long as the Lord allows.
~My "before" photos~
This is my new beginning! This is where I say "good-bye" to being fat and unhealthy, and I say "hello" to the new Erin that is desperate to come out! I know some days are going to be harder than others, but I am determined to stick to this. I want to be one of the inspirational stories that I read every day. I want people to say, "if Erin can do it, I can do it." So, here's to starting over and taking it day by day! ~E
Truer words have never been spoken...
People wonder why I do so many races. I need motivation to keep going. If I didn't have a goal I was striving for I would just drop back into my old habits. It's hard enough to not eat constantly and horribly every day. I wish you the best of luck...I will continue to follow your journey. You can do it!
ReplyDeleteThanks, Chris! If it weren't for the budget I was on, then I would do more races for sure! My friend and I have a couple of different dates on the calendar where we are going to run a 5k and 10k on our own. I won't have to pay for it, I won't get a t-shirt, but I'm hoping that it will be motivation enough to keep me going. Congrats on all of your success as well! I love reading about your races on MFP! :)
ReplyDeleteAmazing!! I love the story and I know you can do this Erin! I am about to start my own blog as well, actually I saw Kristi's and thought it would help me out too. Btw ADORABLE background! you will have to tell me how to get one! Lol
ReplyDeleteGood Luck! cant wait to see you October 7th for the Tyler Rose 5k! :)